introduction

My parents have been together since they were in high school. Love is something that I was lucky enough to be surrounded in as I was growing up and something that I have searched for since moving out on my own. Throughout the past ten years, I have experienced love in many different forms; romance, desperation, desire, lust, loneliness, and passion. I have been in love. I have seen love. I have lost love. But my parents have a soulmate kind of love, a forever love, a happy ever after ending love.

I am young, I am fickle, I am brilliant and bright and wild. I search for love constantly and though my searches and my strange sense of self, I have stumbled upon relationships that have a certain humor, horror, honesty, and realness. I want to share my stories, to make others laugh, and to allow myself to reflect on my memories.

I really hope you enjoy my stories. However outrageous, however scandalous, however funny or inappropriate they might be.

im writing a book

I have struggled with how to start off my story; love affairs, memories, funny moments, memoirs, biographies, enhancing the truth, lying about names, etc. I haven’t yet decided where to start or what to focus on, whether to narrow down my stories or write a trilogy of books. If you have stumbled upon this work, I apologize if it isn’t clear to you or if you have issues with the timing of events or the reasoning behind telling certain stories. I only suggest that you look at every story for humor, for honesty, and for hope; that behind everything that has happened to me, I have grown, I have laughed, and I have loved. Enjoy. 

great love stories.

sawyer and kate.
gatsby and daisy.
noah and allie.
leo and kate.
jin and sun.
mitch and deborah.
desmond and penny.
ross and rachel.
ct and diem.
alex and izzie.
big and carrie.
corey and topanga.

terbo.

rain paints my face

as your cheek rests against mine

as your arms wrap me in warmth.

hold me once more, for one lastly moment, 

for eternity.

you make me whole 

as my body sinks into your embrace

as your voice coats my reality with sweetness.

the deep richness of your words 

the full hunger of your hands against my back

the majestic nature of your smile 

with the moon lighting your face.

miles separate us.

oceans break our hearts as every wave crashes in the shore.

and yet i dream, of your smile, those warm hands, 

cool voice

and eyes that long for more moments, 

more desired rain.

as my paint drips onto your perfect cheek,

as your arms slowly release me, 

i am lost. i am shaken. i am a moment. 

an eternity, just as the rain will always return, 

so will you to my memory.